1 month

One month to go. Although, today, I'm hoping it's sooner than that.

I don't feel like pregnancy has to be that hard. Yeah, your growing a person inside you and all, but I kind of think our bodies are made for that. Some have it harder than others, I know,  and I think I've been relatively lucky in that respect. What is hard, is being pregnant, and still having to take care of your other kids. Especially at this point. I don't have much energy, especially in the evenings. Right about now actually. 6:00 pm. And my tolerance has been met for the day. And patience. At this point I just want the kids to play nice together, in a different room than I am in, so that I will stop yelling at them for everything they do. Not that they should be doing what they're doing, but still. My house is a mess. And you know what? It's going to stay that way until either the kids clean it up, or Carter. I'm just not going to bend over 100 times a day picking up all the toys, wrappers and crap. I just can't do it. I've resorted to scooting things with my feet. I'm literally having to force myself to do laundry. I really don't want to do it. I can't reach in the washer or dryer very well. What's for dinner? I dunno. I guess we'll eat when people start saying they're hungry. Why can't there be a Papa John's like down the street? 'Cause yeah, I have a freezer full of pizza, but I don't even want to do that. I just want to go get it. I can't sleep. Last night was bad. The kids. The kids are very defiant lately. Savannah could seriously give a crap if you tell her not to do something or ask her to DO something. The attitude is raging. And I don't have the energy for it, so she's getting away with a lot more than she normally would. And my sweet Cooper is definitely going through a phase as well. He's sensitive and over reacts to everything. He says "hate Mommy" all the time, even if I had nothing to do with the situation. Nice. He wants to put people in the "trash truck" when he doesn't get his way. Isn't this such a wonderful time to bring another one into the family? Time will tell. I think Savannah will rise to the occasion and want to help a lot, and then Cooper in turn will as well, because he does everything Savannah does. And seriously, if Cooper just fell asleep in a random spot (because it's quiet all the sudden), he might just be put in bed at 6:30. Yep. Totally right. That kid.....

As you can see, I'm having one of those "I'm ready for this to be over" days.